Comfort   von Gepo
                            (Twin-story to "Hurt")
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                        Kapitel 22: Healing with anger
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Aomine had stayed silent for over a minute when Kuroko asked him over the phone
to meet with him and Kagami. He had then asked if it would hurt before saying he
actually didn´t care. After another pause he did ask if Kuroko was sure he
would make it out alive which he promised. The Alpha let out a world-weary sigh
before saying: “I guess we have to get that over with.”
Kuroko had to admit he admired Aomine a bit for openly meeting his doom for a
second time. He had come to the grave when Kuroko called him and he came now.
That took a lot of courage. He wasn´t sure if he himself would have been able
to do that. For someone trying his hardest not to confront his own feelings,
Aomine was strangely keen on being hurt by reminders of his past. Maybe they
lessened his guilt a bit. Or maybe he just hoped Kuroko would be able to be
angry at him one day.
But try as he wanted, he was unable to get angry. Every time he reminded himself
of the horrible things Aomine had done, he also remembered his broken look, that
evening on the bridge, Aomine´s sobs when he had shown him his brother´s
grave. He was unable to be angry at someone who had gone through all that. He
would have to leave that to Kagami and hope for the best.
They met Aomine the next day on one of their usual basketball courts. The tanned
Alpha seemed a bit surprise to see a basketball in Kagami´s hand but smiled
slightly when the other said: “Let´s exhaust ourselves first, then we are
less likely to be at each other´s throats later.”
So they played for hours with Kuroko watching them. He liked watching them. He
even liked smelling them, registering that Aomine was about as strong as Kagami.
If they were to fight over him, one would have to kill the other. Good thing
that Kagami could keep his calm, sometimes at least. His mate seemed to be full
of good ideas.
When both lay panting on the ground, he knelt next to them but Kagami
immediately said: “It´s March, get my jacket to sit on. The ground is too
cold for you.”
“Overprotective hen” Kuroko mumbled under his breath but smiled and went to
get the jacket.
“Hey, Kagami” Aomine said aloud, looking at the sky above them. “Has Tetsu
told you everything?”
“I don´t know” The redhead answered truthfully. “But I think I get the
picture. Your head is pretty screwed up.”
The other let out a dry laugh which ended in a long sigh. After a short silence
he asked: “Why haven´t you killed me yet?”
“Tetsu forbade it.” Kagami looked up to him and waited a moment. “He does
not allow me to get angry and he does not allow himself to be angry. Even after
I told him what that does to you, he still forbids himself his anger. He fears
you´ll go all suicidal on him.”
“And? It´s not like the world would be sad to see me go.” Aomine stated
with sorrow in his voice. “He´s probably right. I know he would blame
himself, that´s what holds me back.”
“Can you believe someone can be angry at you and still be sad if you die?”
Kagami turned to lie on his stomach. “Or shall we commit you to a psychiatry
before talking to you?”
“Do you really want me to live or do you just want your mate not to grieve?”
Aomine´s voice trembled.
“I´d miss my rival, so I fucking want you to get over this shit.” Kagami
reached over to punch the other´s shoulder. “You´re no fun when you´re so
depressed.”
“It is depressing that you two who have most reason to hate me are the only
people who want me to live.” The tanned Alpha lay one arm over his eyes but
Kuroko could see the glistening of tears on his cheeks.
“Your brother would have wanted you to live” Kuroko said calmly. “And
somewhere in your head I think you want to live as well.”
“I don´t” Aomine admitted. “I just am a coward, afraid of death.”
“As you should be.” Kagami grumbled in annoyance. “Say, does this moping
get you anywhere? Do you think this makes Kuroko feel better?”
“I am not moping!” Aomine lunged for the other who only rolled out of the
way.
“You do” Kagami calmly stated.
“I am contemplating suicide, you insensitive asshole.”
“No, you´re moping around, giving yourself reasons why you are not allowed to
enjoy yourself. It makes Kuroko fear for your life which is most likely why you
are doing it. As long as you mope, you can be sure at least one human is
thinking about you. It makes you feel less lonely.” Kagami sat up. “But
guess what: You could simply allow yourself to enjoy things again and make new
friends. You don´t have to be alone and terrorize your two only friends with
your suicidal thoughts. Right now Momoi and Tetsu still suffer you but one day,
they will decide you are just too much of a hassle. What will you do then?”
Aomine stared at him in shock. To be honest, Kuroko stared as well. One did not
say such things. You did not tell a suicidal man to stop moping. Was Kagami
completely mad?
“I guess I´ll kill myself” The other Alpha answered after a long moment.
“So you keep suffering until they are done with you and don´t care anymore if
you die? That´s pretty fucked up, you idiot.”
“Oi, I am not an idiot!” Aomine stemmed his upper body up.
“Are too.”
“Am not!”
“You are, Ahomine.”
“Take that back, Bakagami!”
“Silence!” Kuroko admonished them loudly. “That was horribly rude,
Taiga.”
His mate just scratched his head and looked away. The Omega shook his head.
Really, what had he expected? Kagami was as sensitive as an elephant in a
porcelain shop and had a skull just as thick. He turned to Aomine, saying: “I
am terribly sorry for his behavior. I really, really don´t want you to die. And
I will not get tired of you, even if this haunts you-”
“You should.” Aomine huffed in annoyance. “I hate to say it but he is
right. If you and Satsuki continue to forgive everything, I´ll never change. So
please get angry for once.”
What? Kuroko blinked, then stared at the other.
“Come on, every time I skip school, the teachers forgive me because of my
basketball skills. When I skip practice, the team forgives me because I am their
ace. When I blow up at Satsuki, she yells and cries but she always forgives me
and lets me make it up to her. Really, I grew up trying my hardest to make my
parents angry, just to get any reaction out of them. Then I do shit like rape
you and Kise just pats me on the shoulder and joins in? I mean, seriously, what
the fuck?” Aomine buried his head in his hands. “How does anyone expect me
to behave when I never get any consequences for the shit I do?”
“I´ll gladly beat you up when I think you do shit.” Kagami´s lids
contracted. “Like right now. You don´t tell your rape victim you took your
anger out on him, hoping to get scolded for it. What are you, five years old?
That´s the worst kind of temper tantrum I ever heard of.”
Yes.
It was.
Aomine´s head nearly hit the pavement, he was barely able to get his balance
back by supporting himself with his arms. What had hit him wasn´t Kagami´s
fist though. That one still sat where he had been, raising both eyebrows. When
he saw Kuroko sink back on his hunches, he whistled and said: “I take
everything back, you have a mean right hook.”
“I noticed that if I don´t try to punch but use the move I use for the Ignite
Pass Kai, it is quite powerful” Kuroko answered him.
Aomine stared at him as if he had seen a ghost.
“Was that reaction to your satisfaction? I can do that again if you wish”
The Omega told him.
“No!” The Alpha held up a hand in defense. “I mean … damn, that hurt.”
He put pressure on his jaw, feeling for breaks. “Shit, Tetsu … I didn´t
expect that.”
“You wanted to be punched, right?”
“Yeah, just … why does it have to hurt so much?” Aomine felt his lip which
had split.
“Pussy” Kagami taunted him.
“Well, you get one of those punches and remain standing, asshole!”
“I don´t need to get punched, I can behave.” The redhead smiled in
self-satisfaction.
“Yes, that´s exactly why I am pregnant right now” Kuroko stated.
Aomine smirked, Kagami spluttered. The Omega simply smiled in self-satisfaction.
With a chuckle, the tanned Alpha grabbed the ball, threw it at Kagami and asked:
“Can you go another round?”
“Hell yeah! I´ll beat you this time” The redhead exclaimed.
Kuroko returned to his bench seat, laying the jacket out under him.

Kagami and him ended up making out in the shower afterwards.
But even though his mate had an erection, he did not go further than kissing and
petting him, just like yesterday. Was he skittish after the anal examination?
Yesterday Kuroko had decided to let it go but today it annoyed him.
“Taiga, is something wrong?” He leaned against his mate and looked up,
trying to angle his head so that the spray wouldn´t get in his eyes.
“What´s to be wrong?” The redhead smirked, leaning down to kiss him again.
“Why aren´t you going further?” Kuroko grumbled after the kiss.
“What do you mean?” Idiot, playing all innocent on him. He knew exactly what
his mate meant.
“I want you inside me.” The Omega decided to stop beating around the bush.
“Ah, uhm … that … is that a good idea?” Kagami held him gently, totally
ignoring his raging erection.
“Why shouldn´t it be?” Somehow he already knew the answer. His mate was too
much of a gentleman, really, this was pushing it.
“Well, you are pregnant and these aren´t easy times and I don´t want …
what if something happens to our baby? What if I overburden your body?”
“You are unable to hurt a baby with this as long as you don´t make me
bleed.” Kuroko poked his mate´s wilting erection. “As the doctor told you,
you should not neglect your mate. Keeping me sexually happy is a very important
thing.”
“You … really want this? You´re not saying it because you think I want this
or because you fear I will leave you if we don´t have sex every night? I really
want to do what makes you happy, not what you think might make me happy. Do you
honestly want me inside you?”
“I already said so.” The blue-haired knelt down to lick the object of
desire. “I like you inside me. It feels good.”
Kagami groaned in appreciation of what he was doing. As soon as he was up again,
he gently pulled his mate into a standing position before lifting him up with
both hands on the other´s butt cheeks. He plunged between them in one swift
motion, missed but let Kuroko guide him in. They had found out over the course
of weeks that an Omega´s sexual desire did not only include self-lubrication
but loosening of their anal channel as well. So preparation was not needed when
you had sex often enough.
Still, he had gotten tighter in those two days. Kuroko had to take deep breaths
to accommodate the stretch. It took a few seconds before he smiled at Kagami,
silently urging him to move. His mate still waited another moment before he
carefully lifted Kuroko a bit and let him sink down again. After a few of those
careful movements, he began thrusting as well. Kuroko held onto him with nothing
but his hands on his mate´s shoulders.
This position meant giving up all control. At first he had not liked that at
all. Now it was fabulous, being able to let go like that and trusting his mate
to take care of him. To hold him, not to let him fall, to pleasure him in a
rhythm they both liked. He had kept his word and told Kagami what he liked or
not.
Now they had the best sex ever.

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